As my faithful readers know, I have been in the slump to end all slumps. Thank you for the support you showed on my last post, I Am The World’s Worst Weight Loss Blogger. I have yet to figure out all the pieces I need to shake out of this slump, but in the end I know what I need to do and I just have to figure out how to start doing it. You guys are helping even though it may not seem like it at times.
So I thought I would use the opportunity to document some things I have learned on the way back up – not the journey I had intended to take but I did and I need to learn from it. Here are 5 Things I Have Learned Since Gaining The Weight Back:
1. I think about re-starting the diet at the wrong times
It’s happened enough now that I have detected the pattern – when I have been off my diet and gaining weight the time when I start thinking to myself that this time will be different and that I will absolutely be starting my diet immediately is right after I just stuffed myself. I’m sure it’s some sort of natural guilt reaction but I can say with confidence that the diets or lifestyle changes that are thought about in such states never actually get off the ground.
Why can’t I think about these things when I am being good, shouldn’t it be easier to just continue to be good? So how would one go about addressing this problem? Maybe have a timer that goes off at random periods throughout the day and that is your cue to think about being healthy? I can see that working – anyone know if it exists?
2. I need to learn how to better handle success
The weight I lost at the beginning of my weight loss journey that I am documenting here is the second time I have lost a noticeable amount of weight in the last dozen years. In both cases there was a series of common events that occurred at the tipping point of me gaining the weight back again. People started giving me compliments. I don’t understand the psychology of why this might be, but it sure seems like a trend.
It’s almost as if my willpower wanes once I have achieved that recognition from others, even though I was far from my goals. How to combat this one? Maybe instead of getting compliments being an unsaid goal (who doesn’t hope for compliments?) I need to make it an actual, measurable goal. Number of new people complimenting me on my weight loss in a month? Maybe that would help keep the drive alive.
3. It sucks to be fat
Obvious, I know. But it needs to be said. I’m now wearing the one pair of fat pants I kept in addition to a couple of new pairs I had to buy. My only black belt is at the first notch and I can’t gain any more weight otherwise I’ll need to buy a new one. When I get out of my work pants at the end of the day I have a sore belly from where my belt buckle was rubbing all day.
I’ve had to buy a bunch of new, larger dress shirts for work. I look and feel older. We are implementing high definition video conferencing at work and let me tell you the camera sure does add 25 pounds. Either that or I am just fat. Oh wait, I am. That sucks!
4. The weight comes back slowly – but time marches on
I have always been of the belief that while it takes forever to lose weight, it can get piled on very quickly. In fact, I’m starting to think the opposite – at least for someone who has as much weight to lose as I do it does seem in hindsight that I was able to lose weight pretty rapidly but that it has taken a lot longer to put it back.
Look at the slope on my weight loss graph at the start of my journey compared to the upslope since. I have been gaining weight for longer than I was losing it. But lately it has accelerated as bad habits compound. It doesn’t matter how long it actually takes to gain that weight – if you are moving in that direction it’s bad, you can’t fight time.
5. I have the knowledge, what I need is willpower
I absolutely know what I have to do to lose weight. It’s not colon cleansing and it’s not acai berries. I know what fast food is OK for me, I know how to moderate my portions, I know what food I should eat in moderation. I know that even simple walking will help and that I don’t need a complete home gym or public gym membership to succeed. Pretty much anything will work when you are ingesting fewer calories than you burn.
But even knowing all that I fail, and it’s because I don’t have the willpower that I need. Willpower to start again after I have fallen, willpower to keep going when times are tough. I don’t know how one gets willpower, but I need to figure it out.
So that’s some things I have learned. But will I take them to heart? If you enjoyed this post, please consider subscribing. Thank you for visiting!